The Impossible Girl


I have been taking a break from blogging  for various reasons.

Since then I have locked myself away in a quite place to contemplate all the bizarre events that have beefallen me. The one person WHO keeps re-appearing in my life is the Impossible Girl WHO is also known as the Woman Twice Dead.

I discussed her in my first article on the new Lab entitled Remember Me. The truth is I have been discussing her many different aspects and incarnations since the very beginning. It would seem that she has been trying to get me to remember my true identity and to help me to restore my memory of the past as my mind has been wiped clean.


Firstly however I am going to explore her true identity and find out WHO she truly is. Clara is on one level a fallen woman or a fallen angel. In the Doctor Who series she falls through time just like SEVEN YEAR OLD Alice in Wonderland constantly re-appearing in different timelines and incarnations… her mission impossible is to save the Doctor.

She has been s hatter ed into a million pieces or fragments scattered throughout time. This happened during her fall from her original state in the garden.


Her first appearance was at the beginning of Season 7 as a girl trapped in an assylum for Daleks.  However, once the Doctor enters her room he discovers, to his infinite sadness, Oswin is also a robotic Dalek. The room she thought she was in only exists in her imagination. The Doctor explains the rope ladder he used to get into the facility was originally used by her when she was human.

Oswin had been captured by the Daleks, and because of her genius, had been fully converted into a Dalek instead of simply made into a puppet. The Daleks are akin to the Borg in Star Trek the Hive Mind that you must be ASSimiliated into…. it also involves becoming part MA Chine cold and heartless…soul less


Content with her fate, Oswin (still imagining herself in the fake room) tells the Doctor to REMEMBER HER, explaining that the shield around the Asylum has been dropped. The Doctor thanks her, and — on her order — runs for his life.

I have spoken before in previous posts about how Eve since the Fall has been artificially cloned into a darker form and how on one level she has also become a black hole and dark matter. It is a difficult concept to grasp and one which I have been struggling with myself to understand.

However one thing I am clear on is we have a choice as to which path/door/way/black hole we take there are many ways and many choices just as there are many different forms of Clara/Eve but only one of them is true only one of them is genuine only one of them will take us back to our true home the rest are just trap doors that take us deeper into the maze, deeper into the illusion.


I decided to Google the meanings of the names “Clara”, “Oswin” and “Oswald” to see what came up, and to discover if they had any relevance to her character at all. This is what I discovered:

Clara means bright; (CLEAR AND SHINY LIKE A STAR) highly intelligent, illustrous, wisdom, God-fearing, extraordinary beauty

Oswin as a boy’s name is of Old English origin, and it’s meaning is “God’s friend”.

Oswald as a boy’s name is pronounced OZ-wald. It is of Old German origin, and it’s meaning is “God’s power”.

As you can see, each name has a meaning related to God which confirms what I have been saying for sometime about Wisdom and the Rock being connected to the femi NINE aspect of the Creator. It is no coincidence that there are NINE fruits of the Spirit and NINE gifts of the Spirit recorded in the New Testament. In addition to the alternate NINE muses of Greek Mythology. The number 33 is related to Her as 3×3=9.

Clara 33

The Spirit of God has also seven aspects and this is a theme that runs throughout the ancient Scriptures and why Clara appears in the first episode of Season 7…  a 17 which along with a nine is associated with the date of one of Her alleged returns.

The internet is buzzing once again about the 23rd Sept this time in 2017.


On September 23, 2017 there are four planets in the vicinity that complete the sign of the Woman in Revelation 12 and its ultimate uniqueness. Mercury, Venus, Mars, and Jupiter play their parts. Above the head of Virgo is the constellation Leo. In Leo at this time there will be Mars, Venus, and Mercury. With Leo being a constellation of NINE principle stars, the three wandering stars make it twelve at this time. Thus the garland of twelve stars is upon the woman. For three planets to be in Leo at this time with all of the other preconditions makes this rare.


In returning to Clara she was able to accomplish something that the Doctor was unable to do she had the ability to hack into the PathWay the Dalek Matrix or Hive Mind and erase the Doctor from the collective memory bank. Unfortunately the Doctor had to leave her behind and she died.


Her next incarnation was in The Snowmen where once again she fell through time and space and died. The Doctor found her in VICTORIAN times at the Rose and Crown working as a barmaid as she is royalty a White Snow Queen no less.

In the story she was also a GOVERNESS who was attacked by a mirror image, another ice queen governess who was also shattered in the fall. Clara told the children in her care that she was born behind the clock face of Big Ben and that she invented fish as she didn’t want to swim (through time) alone as water = time. In FIN ding Dory she again has no memory.

Finding DoorWay

In one scene she was hanging upside down a scene repeated in her last episode Hell Bent in which she died once again.


She was also portrayed as a Mary Poppins/ Eliza Dolittle character with a black umbrella in hand. Eliza also had a Professor/Doctor Dolittle to help her.  Clara discovered the Doctor hiding in plain sight in a p ark she then found the ladder which became a spiral staircase reaching into the clouds where the Tardis was located.


Again Clara has discovered the pathway to travel through space and time to try and wake up the Doctor and help him to remember in order to save him and he is doing the exact same as they both try to wake each other up.

Another point of interest is the Great Intelligence who uses our imagination and dreams against us who wants to turn our dreams into nightmares and make them reality. However we still have control over our minds and imagination (for now) we can still reprogram them with a different scenaRIO.

Another incarnation of Clara’s was Winnie Clarence, a student, later a research graduate, at Snowcap University in Antarctica by 2048. Her name was short for “Oswin Clarence”. When she was eighteen, Winnie came to Antarctica because she wanted to explore.


In 2048, Winnie rescued the Twelfth Doctor and the original Clara after they narrowly escaped a helicopter crash near Snowcap, with the two not recognising each other’s appearance underneath her heavy snow gear. When Clara entered inside Winnie’s room to clean up and get changed, the two got out of their uncomfortable snow gear and they realised that they were doppelgangers of one another, with Clara immediately realising she had encountered an echo for the first time.

Later, after overhearing the Doctor and Clara discuss that Winnie was born to die so that the Doctor might live because of Clara splintering herself throughout time and space, Winnie, upset by what they were saying, ran off on a snowmobile. Clara tried following after Winnie but the two FELL DOWN a crevasse into an ice cavern. While Winnie tended to her injured leg, Clara told her about how the echoes were created, and Winnie revealed that she felt like she remembered some of the story already.

The  entire thread of the storyline surrounding Clara in Dr Who is around lost memories and her being assimiliated and cloned. In the Zygon Inversion she was replicated and turned into a killer.


However the real Queen is making a comeback.


In turning to the White Queen the actress Jodie Comer who starred in the supernatural drama REMEMBER ME also established herself as one to watch with her performances  in BBC One’s hugely successful series, Doctor F OS ter, where she was revealed to have been having a three-year-affair with the husband of her parents’ friend Doctor Foster, played by Suranne Jones.  Mrs Jones also played Idris the Doctor’s wife theTardis come to life.

Comer is in good company with The White Princess. Her mother, the White Queen, was played to much acclaim by Rebecca Ferguson, who has since established herself as a bona fine leading lady with scene-stealing turns opposite Tom Cruise in Mission Impossible- Rogue Nation and scoring parts in The Snowman opposite Michael F assbender.

All these different characters are representations of the same person although she has many faces/incarnations/echoes/fragments they are copies/images drawn from the original. In the Bible she is shown as the Queen of Heaven and the Queen of  Babylon who demands human sacrifice in contrast to the other side of her character where she is the Virgin Queen and the Queen of Israel who like the White Queen Elizabeth Woodville has to flee to safety and seek sanctuary.

Jenna Coleman the actress who played Clara is currently playing the role of another Queen…Victoria.

In the series it shows Victoria contemplating becoming another virgin queen like Elizabeth I as she stares at Elixabeth’s portrait but her advisor Lord Melbourne (Wizard of Oz) tells her that she has to marry and have children. The city of Melbourne and the state of Victoria in OZ were named after them.


Her reign of SIXTY THREE (6+3)  years and SEVEN months is known as the Victorian era. It was a period of industrial, cultural, political, scientific, and military change within the United Kingdom, and was marked by a great expansion of the British Empire.

Victoria married her first cousin, Prince Albert of Saxe-Coburg and Gotha, in 1840. Their NINE children married into royal and noble families across the continent, tying them together and earning her the sobriquet “the gr and moth er of Eu rope”or the rope ladder the dna mother. Her original name was Alexandrina linking her back to Sandra.

Victoria was transformed from the White Queen to the Woman in Black after the death of her husband. She remained  dressed in black and in mourning the rest of her life.The  famous quote always associated to her was “WE ARE NOT A MUSE D”.


Pauline Collins played Queen Victoria in the Dr Who series the surnames of both Coleman and Collins are derived from the same name.

Meaning of Coleman

Victory of the people.
Biblical context Origin – Greek. Derived From Nicholas
Nicolas was one of the S EVE N deacons of the church at Jerusalem. St Nicholas was a second century bishop based in Myra Turkey.


Another form of the name is CLAUS as in the Saint Nicholas who arrives in the middle of winter and is always associated with snow as he rides his sleigh/chariot with his reindeer. He too is associated with Coal Man as he carries a sack over his shoulder and is covered in soot coming down the chimney.  Early stories of  St Nicholas have him delivering coal as gifts for the poor in order to heat their homes.

Here the Christ Doctor want you to share an or ange l and defeat the demented Dementia that causes you to lose your memory.

The Doctor is also associated with another saint.. Saint John as his police box has a St John’s ambulance badge marked on the door.

In English the meaning of the name Coleman is: Dove; dark skinned. In the above video she is wearing a necklace with angel wings demonstrating her divine origins. The dove in Christian terms is a symbol of the Holy Spirit and in pagan ideology it represents divine wisdom. Her name Coleman means Victory as in the Roman goddess of Victory Victoria.

Unlike the Greek Nike, the goddess Victoria (Latin for “victory”) was a major part of Roman society. Multiple temples were erected in her honor. When her statue was removed in 382 CE by Emperor Gratianus there was much anger in Rome She was normally worshiped by triumphant generals returning from war.

Also unlike the Greek Nike, who was known for success in athletic games such as chariot races, Victoria was a symbol of VICTORY OVER DEATH and determined who would be successful during war.

Clara was not the first Victoria to play the Doctor’s companion in fact she first appeared in the original second series where unsuprisingly she was also a Victorian who was abducted by Daleks after they had murdered her father.

Orphan Black

She too battled the Great Intelligence in “The Abominable Snowman” and in the London Underground in “The Web of Fear”.

Another sync in relation to Clara is as shown above snow and winter and to reinforce that theme another famous angel who fell during a snow storm was Clarence in the movie  “Its A Wonderful Life”. He FELL off a bridge in the town of Bedford FALLS on Christmas EVE in an attempt to stop George from FALLING in a suicide attempt.. In the movie the angel showed George an alternate universe a dark mirror image of his home town. It finishes with a bell on a Christmas Tree and the line “every time a bell rings an angel gets his/her wings”.

The Dr Who episode in which the Doctor meets the modern day incarnation of Clara sees her mind being harvested and trapped in a net by a maatrix a dominatrix.The power of the X wi fe which in turn is being controlled by the Great Intelligence the god of this world.

Miss Kizlet was also an orphan who couldn’t find her parents and was lied to and abducted as a child by the Great Intelligence at Russell Square Tube Station in “The Web of Fear”.

Another similar figure in popular culture is SEVEN OF NINE….of Star Trek fame.

Seven of Nine (born Annika Hansen) is a fictional character who appears in seasons four through seven of the American science fiction television series Star Trek: Voyager. Portrayed by Jeri Ryan, she is a former Borg drone who joins the crew of the Federation starship Voyager. Her full Borg designation is Seven of Nine, Tertiary Adjunct of Unimatrix 01. The character was a replacement for Kes, and was intended to introduce a foil to Captain Kathryn Janeway in a similar manner as Spock in Star Trek: The Original Series.


Seven was introduced in the second part of the episode “Scorpion”, the first episode of the fourth season. The character continued to appear throughout the series until the final episode, “Endgame”. Stories related to her relationships with Captain Janeway and The DOCTOR appeared throughout the series. Several episodes such as “The RAVEN” explored her background and younger life as Annika Hansen before she was assimilated by the Borg.


Her back story sounds familiar

On the moon’s surface they find no Borg, only the wreckage of an old Federation ship. It shows signs of Borg invasion and partial assimilation. Seven feels that the ship is familiar to her; very familiar. There is a bit of Borg machinery still active on board, which is what caused Seven’s homing instinct to reactivate. As she looks around the ship, the memories hit her hard. This is her parents’ ship, the Raven. It was taken by the Borg almost twenty years ago, when Seven was a little girl named Annika Hansen. She and her parents were assimilated on this very spot. 

Matthew 18

And He called a little child to Himself and put him in the midst of them,

And said, Truly I say to you, unless you repent (change, turn around, go back) and become like little children [trusting, lowly, loving, forgiving, innocent], you can never enter the kingdom of heaven [at all].

Whoever will humble himself therefore and become like this little child [trusting, lowly, loving, forgiving] is greatest in the kingdom of heaven.

Queen Victoria never knew her father either… it seems widows/ lost parents/children /husbands/wives/tribes and memories are essential to the plot.

Psalm 146 v9 God watches over the foreigner and sustains the fatherless (orphan) and the widow, but he frustrates the ways of the wicked.

In conclusion its TIME for the return of the true King and Queen.

The Bells of St John are ringing its flight time.



Coming soon the next post entitled…….The Fall



















16 thoughts on “The Impossible Girl

  1. Sorry to hear that Roob but Cainadian always did have an inflated ego

    In other news I had a Mad Hatters Tea Party yesterday it was all a bit dottie and this morning I got a birthday msg from Alice she sent me this link

    the mad hatter is a bit like the joker he always likes to clown around and make things up

    All of the victims were found in the MAKE UP section of a Macy’s department store.

    Washington State Patrol trooper Heather Axtman told Sky News the gunman used a “rifle-type weapon”. like a water pistol

    Tari Caswell told the Skagit Valley Herald she was in a dressing room when she heard “what sounded like four balloons popping”…… the only thing missing was a tricycle

    did you cascade down the stairs in stages or was it a straight drop

    a small waterfall, typically one of several that fall in stages down a steep rocky slope.

    the shooter was dressed in grey as in Mr Grey…Shady .Spectre

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      1. This was the first thing on my news feed this morning

        Also known as “the tumbling woman,” the falling lady scam is common in London, but can happen anywhere in the world, reported Travel+Leisure. This is another type of distraction scam — a woman, typically an elderly woman, will make a huge commotion by falling down. Accomplices will then quickly move throughout the crowd, pickpocketing and grabbing purses.
        It’s important to remain as attentive and cautious as possible to avoid distractions scams like this. If you see any suspicious activity and suspect a tumbling woman scam,

        step aside and keep an eye on your valuables.

        C harlotte enemy agent……she is a National Treasure you know the little scarlet tealeaf

        On MV its all about keeping an eye on the family crown jewels. Protect the pearl.

        From the Kat Burglar

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  2. TTN

    Good to see you back.

    Ditto about the female Hall of Mirrors. I’ve met with Lucy, Isis, Mary Magdalene, the Earth Mother, the Material Girl and others over the last 10 months or so. And not forgetting the Dog Star 🙂 My gut feeling is that there is some form of integration happening.

    Clara left about December and I think we’ve been travelling Idris since. But the Dr gets a new companion soon 🙂

    And know what you mean about the Ice Maiden. Never a pleasant experience.

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    1. Frank I think there is a connection with the return of King Arthur and Queen Victoria and sorting out the joint pain of arthritis…..and bringing the fairytale prince/king and the fantasy girl/queen back to life.

      They are divided one blaming the other for what caused the break up and the fall out….and they have been at war ever since…in addition they both landed on their heads which resulted in memory loss and and being prone to bouts of craziness and weirdness….as some of the comments on MV lately can verify lol

      The strong message I am getting is that their return is close as Clara (Victoria) fell as a leaf in the Fall/autumn. whether thats 2017….18 or 19 we will have to wait and see as all of these numbers keep appearing in association with her.

      The Return of the White Queen

      1720, Scottish, “magic, enchantment” (especially in phrase to cast the glamor), a variant of Scottish gramarye “magic, enchantment, spell,” alteration of English grammar (q.v.) with a medieval sense of “any sort of scholarship, especially occult learning.” Popularized by the writings of Sir Walter Scott (1771-1832). Sense of “magical beauty, alluring charm” first recorded 1840.

      as I am writing this The Man WHO Would BEE KING is on the Tele with 007 and Mr Cain.

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  3. What do you mean bouts of craziness and weirdness on MV lately 🙂 It’s been like that for a long time !

    The 2017 conjunction caught my attention. I’m a Leo and whenever Leo is starred, my life goes a bit wild.

    For my money, it’s always been about the Fall or Separation. Original Sin, guilt etc and forgiveness is the way through or out. And I was going to include something about The Fall in a article. I was going to say it was strange we had the same idea but this is how it seems to work ! Saves me a job 🙂

    It’s Kinky

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